Cover Changes

I am excited to show off my new covers. I worked hard on them, though I am not a professional. I know that I haven't been on here for awhile as I have been busy and I thought that I was going to give up writing once and for all. But my drive is back. I am giving away free kindles again if you follow me on twitter under Mandi Mae, or instagram.

I have been busy with my new job as a Care Aid and I guess I felt like no one was listening. I have stood on the rooftop calling out and no one hears me. Who am I, anyway? Just some smalltown girl with a dream. I pushed my dream aside to do something that i thought everyone would be proud of, and they were. But was I proud of myself? Yes, at first but what is my true love and can't I do both? What's stopping me?

I remembered why I did this in the first place, because I have something to say. I have a message that cannot be held back anymore. Jesus loves you. It's as simple as that and I am portraying it in any way I know how. Through fantasy writing I hope I am getting my message across without sounding too preachy. The funny thing is that's it's easy to write about God because no matter what you do, He is always there. How can one tell any story without Him?

In the Bible it says not to have selfish ambitions and I have gone over it over in my head. is it selfish? I have never asked for money and I give alot of my books away. If I do it for the Lord is it not selfish? Even though I love it? What is selfish? To do something that you love that only you benefit from. But hopefully others can benefit from me as well.

I have a better look at life now and I am growing as a person. I was writing without understanding of some things but now I know. My las two books I just published within the last couple of days shows my growth in understanding of the gospel. I used to believe in New Age stuff and that wasn't good for me because it pulled me away from my creator. Now I read the Bible regularly and understand more every day. I see that many things that i used to do was wrong and I'm not perfect but I'm trying to work on bettering myself. It is hard to be a good person.

I try to be nice to others but my thoughts are crazy. I understand that many people have this problem but I can't help but wonder if it's just me or the darkness of this world. Jesus said that you are not to love this world and turn away from it because the world is made of demons. I want to shine in the light but I keep asking myself if I am worthy enough.

I know that he died on the cross for me and some say that's all that matters, but don't they want to do more? If someone said that all you had to do was believe in them, of course you would follow them, but is that all that you'd do? I would also want to do more to show them that I want them in my heart, like show them respect by knowing them (or follow the ten commandments as it may be). I don't know, these are just my thoughts.

Anyways, keep pushing to better yourself, love everyone, and love God. On top of that take care of yourselves and don't push too hard.