I'm Back

I keep doing this. It's been hard to stay focused. I start writing again and then something comes up and I turn away. I am back to writing and posting my work on Twitter and Instagram. I'm still having little engagement and sales but a ton of people wanting me to use their services. I wish I could but it is so expensive but I guess it costs money to make money. I wish I could draw some attention to myself, but it's a poor market as people are struggling to buy groceries, let alone books.

I have found myself more and as I look at my old writing, I wonder if it's relevant anymore. If I'm doing what's right in God's eyes. I started this journey to spread His word but as I grow with Him, I find that my old ideas might not have been right. I know many Christians who would agree, but I was trying to show that God is available to all, even elves, witches, vampires and people of fantasy worlds.

I'm working on a story about mermaids, fairies and pirates, but I've been stuck for awhile. That's normal, though. As a writer, I get writer's block often. It's difficult to know that, like my last books, I may put all this effort in and never sell a copy or get any reviews. I've heard many people say that they want to write for extra money or they'll just get in with a big publishing house. I nod but inside I want to tell them how hard it is. To make money as a self published author takes a lot of work and money, and to break in with a big publishing house could take years and you may still never get it.

I've watched people write a novel and query it around, then after years put it aside because no one bought it and they keep it on a shelf. I could never do that. That's why i self published, so at least it was out there. I wonder if maybe I was never meant to write but I guess if I was supposed to God will send people to my work and, who knows, maybe I've changed people's lives and don't know it. In the meantime, I will keep plugging away at it and hoping for the best.